I’m not much in the mood to blog and I don’t have much to say. Can I say that? Last Thursday my dad was taken to the hospital. We had quite a scare, but now he’s home. Between that, work and trying to figure out new directions, my brain is mush.
There’s no doubt I’m done teaching. Today I looked out into the sea of disinterested faces. It’s not their fault. They are no more interested in grammar than I am. But, even if I wasn’t teaching grammar, I’d be teaching people whose minds are past the class—focused on that sheet of paper at the end of the journey. I want to be a part of a growing, creative environment. I don’t want to be surrounded by people going through the motions.
I’m considering film school—probably Colorado Film School. They are highly rated. They are located in Denver. Long story short, I had a dream where God seemed to be leading me to Denver. I suspect God has kept me in the Akron area to help dad through his recent bout with cancer. The word from all the doctors is that this period is coming to an end.
Right now my brain is too foggy to have a clear direction. However, I do know I love creativity and want to be in a completely creative field. I do know I love screenwriting. I also love acting. I’m considering taking a degree in writing and directing. Will I like directing? I can’t say for sure. I’ve never done it, but I suspect I’ll love it.
Right now I just don’t have all the answers or all the information to make decisions based entirely on logic. I’m not sure in life there ever comes a point where that is true. I’m basing decisions as much on intuition as logic. In some ways, I think that has me making better decisions.
Anyhow, I know this blog is all over the place. But, it simply represents where its author is at.